Still here
The other night, around 1 am we both just happened to wake up. Groggy, she told me get her some lemondade. This required making it first.
I thanked her the next morning for making me get up and serve her and that I found it a turn on. I added that I hoped she'd demand more and in doing so, a quick stoke, tweek of the nipple or playful pat on the ass would be perfect. No orgasm, just a little tease.
She replied that "it" was difficult for her. I asked later if she found be demanding difficult and she thought that it was sometimes disrespectful. I told her not to worry.
Truth is, I don't think she really enjoys sex or touching/kissing etc. She NEVER touches first, NEVER reaches out to hold my hand much less other parts of my anatomy. We don't kiss much, even when having sex. She used to like recieving oral.....no longer.
She just doesn't need the physical intimacy on any regular basis. It seems a stress thing. Vacation sex can be often, varied and wonderful. And non-vacation sex can be pretty adventurous after a few drinks.
I guess I just have to live with it as I know I couldn't look my children in the eyes and tell them I was getting divorced because Mom wouldn't put out.